I’m a privileged person. I admit it freely. So many others have serious, life threatening or at least life-damaging problems these days. Hell, all the time. And I have so few things to complain about in Coronavirus Days. I’m lucky, well-fed, safe and well.
Having said all that, I’m in pain. My grandchildren Wyatt and Mia are ages almost five and almost three, and they are going to be in a wedding. Wyatt is going to be a ring bearer and Mia a flower girl.
It’s tomorrow. Wyatt’s wearing cute little boy dress-up clothes and Mia’s going to be in a fancy raspberry-colored dress. All dressed up, they’re going to walk down the aisle together. Everyone will smile at them. And I won’t be there. I won’t be there for the bathing, dressing, hair combing part at their house. I won’t be there for the photos or videos. I won’t be at the wedding or anywhere near them because I and my husband are vulnerable to Covid 19 and the kids could be carriers. We could get sick and maybe even die if they have been exposed and pass that exposure to us.
Better safe than sorry, my grown children say. But I am sorry. And sad. Crying loudly, tears running down my face sad. Raging that it’s not fair and that I feel punished for something I didn’t do sad.
Just one tiny story of loss in a sea of them, but it’s mine. And I’m hurting today.
Pat Ponders Life 
Yes, Pat—Reality of life during the pandemic is painful. It is particularly difficult for us whose age and vulnerability dictate what we should and should not do. I miss the regular visits and social outings with my Grandkids and children. These missed precious days will never return.
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I’m so sorry you’ll miss this, but let me tell you, life is long and there are so many occasions ahead of you with these two. My oldest is 22, and I have seen enough special times to last 100 lifetimes. so, you need to be around to see those many, many times ahead. I’m missing things too. I’m missing my grandaughter’s graduation from high school out in Utah, for example. Have to make do with FaceTime or Zoom. But, couldn’t you Social Distance? Sneak a look from the back?
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I feel your pain, I had to forego seeing my granddaughter and her three and five year old babies this week because of the same reasons. So so sad during this time , we will have other times and now we have to be careful and watch out for ourselves so we will be available to once again be able to hug and cuddle these sweet little people. Meanwhile I am grateful my family is safe and still have employment.
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I’m so sorry you are hurting Pat. You live close by so maybe that’s why it hurts so badly. You are used to being with them and even caring for them often. Cherish the memories you have already made with them. They may remember those times when you talk to them about them and what they did that helped you be happy. Take care and count your blessings.
Nancy Griffin
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